I am lying in bed, thinking about thinking about getting up and out to go to the gym. John’s watch didn’t wake us up. I am secretly happy that I am not at the gym and instead snuggled with him. In this moment I am caught between my priorities and what feels good in the moment, I’m going to call that, my desires.
My priority is to wake consistently, move my body, and set myself in forward motion for the day ahead. But desires can sometimes offset priorities. Sometimes our desires win over. I’d say they win over a lot. We are a part of a culture that teases us with pleasures that are not good for us. We are fast-paced and unintentional. We’re caught on a wheel. We don’t sit down long enough to work out what our priorities are or we do set priorities but get sidetracked over and over and over until we simply forget.
I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to be a robot. I want to be human, I want to be flexible and accommodating, and as my friend Arin says, I want to be interrupt-able. It’s hard to keep priorities in check and be these things too. Because when we have priorities at the forefront we create boundaries. Boundaries are hard. Boundaries speak all sorts of languages and, particularly as women, can come off as bossy, assertive, insensitive, unfriendly, mean, or just down right bitchy. But we all need them and we all want the benefits of them so the work comes in being able to clearly communicate our priorities and boundaries to those in our lives that will be affected by them.
Many of the people I meet have the attitude that life is happening TO them and they have no control. But I want to challenge this idea. We have choices in how we think about things, how we prioritize, and how we set boundaries. We have the choice to view our lives as something we create with intention. We have the choice. to be amazed by what is in front of us and we have a choice in how we talk about it and think about it. I don’t know about you but when I realize that I have a choice in viewing the day as a gift or a curse it makes me more CURIOUS about what lies ahead.
Now, off to the gym. so I can keep that priority in check!